June 27th, 2006
I received my Realization from my brother, Ray in 1980 in England. At that time Sahaja Yoga had not long been established in England and so was a very special time. Many seekers at the start were coming out from the drug and hippy era. They were ardent seekers, who were not bothered about their social status, money or integration in the society. Coming from this atmosphere, a miraculous transformation which took place after Self Realization, completely altered my perception about life, who I was and the importance of being very much part of the society. Contrary to my beliefs before realization, these Dharmic codes of conducts after realization were more than just beliefs, they were integrated into my personality. To be able to change a personality so profoundly without having to turn the clocks back and start re-education in schools is quite remarkable.
My mother, despite the fact that she was a practicing Jew, saw a such change my brother that she knew that Shri Mataji must be someone very special. So along with my family I received my realization. I did not feel the coolness at first. I would say that it took me about nine months to feel anything as my subtle system was quite blocked. But I knew it all made sense and was so logical so I stuck with it. Of course now I realize that Kundalini was working slowly through me, and changes took place that I was not even aware of at the time. Answers would come to me out of the very smallest questions and doubts, building up my faith and healing my soul.
It was only through the profundity of meditation that I really saw the changes take place and touched depths and beauty inside and became aware of a new vibratory awareness that I could use all the time. I felt things leave me and I had an amazing flow of creativity, which I used in writing songs. It seemed like the ultimate object of any art form was to be used in devotion to the Divine, otherwise there is no meaning. My depressions left, a balance was established.
If ever I do feel these imbalances come, I can clear them. In consequence, my life is much more joyful I do not worry, I can travel and enjoy being with others sleeping on floors or staying up until all hours of the night without feeling tired, refreshed by the vibrations. People have said to me how calm I appear and also the same for my husband. So I take these occasions, whenever I can to talk about this amazing gift of realization.
In conclusion, there is no doubt in my mind that only through this Self Realization will this and the future generations really survive.
Read more about Sahaja Yoga in UK at http://www.sahajayoga.org.uk