June 27th, 2006
I was fortunate enough to get my realization in Feb 1994. I was a friend of a Sahaja Yogi for three years. I had seen Shri Mataji’s poster in his office and in his dorm room. I never asked him about Her, and he never offered to talk to me about Her. Looking back, I think he talked to me couple of times about spirituality, but I had my own notions. For example, I used to say that “why should I worry God with my own problems”. I was of the opinion that one who approaches God in times of need was not entirely faithful. What did I know? Then in December 1993, my friend got married to a Sahaja Yogini, and she asked him to invite me to the public program. I agreed without any qualms or questions as if it did not matter whether I went or not.
Entering the room, I felt shy and a little timid. They played the videotape of the public program in Cincinnati from few years before in the presence of Shri Mataji. For the entire duration, I had my eyes fixated on the TV screen. I could not move my eyes and I was completely thoughtless, I think. I can’t explain how I felt, but something happened. We had the realization after that. I did not feel anything on my fingertips or on my Sahasrara. The yogis kept on saying that they were feeling coolness on my head. But I could not agree because I felt nothing. But I felt immense peace inside.
I think after that day, I smoked one or two cigarettes, and whenever I did, I did not like it. The same thing happened to my drinking. These were visible, physical signs of change. The yogis continued to nurture my spiritual growth while they stayed in Lafayette. I felt like a part an extended family. Nothing had been as joyous and provided as much contentment in my life before.
I desire that Shri Mataji will give me the courage and blessings to act as a conduit to bring about this transformation in someone else.
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