June 27th, 2006
Already as a young child I was confronted with the questions of life – its meaning and its fulfillment. I soon began to seek my answers in ideas of asceticism and competitive sports as a source of happiness for myself. I actually thought that I had possibly found a key to happiness for all human beings. I suppose if I hadn’t done sports it would have been something else. It wouldn’t really have mattered how I decided to seek because invariably the test of life’s experience soon shattered my illusions and I was led to see the futility of my unfounded ideas – a year of hard training in the Austrian army proved to me that torturing the body was not a way to attain spiritual liberation – after this year I was empty and lost; seeking some source of energy.
I was again without answers but much more conscious of my disorientation than ever before. It was then, about thirteen years ago at the age of nineteen that I got my realization at one of the weekly Sahaja Yoga programs in Vienna. The experience was subtle and beautiful and yet infinitely powerful. A relaxation penetrated my whole body coupled with a kind of tickling joy. And the greatest thing was that I was absolutely aware. The rising of the Kundalini and the breaking of the Sahasrara dissolved all disorientation and I attained a state of crystal clear clarity.
This was the answer to my questions and also the fulfillment of my life itself. No one had explained to me what I should feel or tried to convince me of anything. I had made my own personal and individual experience and from that moment on I knew that Sahaja Yoga would provide me with the answers to all my questions. The peace of mind I experienced was tremendous and I felt as if I had finally reached home.
From the moment of Realization on, I mediated every day, desiring to feel this joy again. Slowly the power of this gentle compassionate energy transformed me. Its effect was so subtle that it was often only weeks later that I noticed the changes. I would no longer become angry in certain situations, spontaneously became absolutely moral and started to respect the true values of society. I started to understand the holy scriptures of various religions so that when I read them I felt that they had put into words what I intuitively already understood. This intuition is like a sixth sense which gave me a powerful discrimination between what is right and wrong, holy and negative, real and illusion.
I was very blessed to be in the presence of Shri Mataji many times during my first years in Sahaja Yoga and this invariably pulled me into new meditative heights and states of awareness - each time was a transformation and a new push in my spiritual growth.
By following Sahaja Yoga it has become possible to lead an absolutely normal, balanced and moral life in the midst of this chaotic and sick western society that I live in. The purity of Sahaja Yoga has enabled me to understand the pure brother-sister relationship. This has helped me to have much better relationships with everyone, because there are no hidden thoughts. Married life is a source of joy and happiness and satisfaction in a relationship based on trust and faith in the partner who is a realized soul. A field of life where I have very clearly seen the effect of transformation of Sahaja Yoga is in education. For six years I worked as a tutor in a boarding school. I was already a Sahaja Yogi and deeply desired the wellbeing of the children there. I did not talk about Sahaja Yoga openly but did my best to use the power of desire, patience and compassion to guide these children to a righteous path and to be satisfied souls. As a Sahaja Yogi I found that these powers actually work and that most children are actually very thankful for them.
But where I saw the power of Sahaja Yoga work most effectively on the growth of children, was at the various Sahaja Yoga Youth camps where so many young realized souls get together. Their mere meeting causes the vibrations to flow and the Divine attention becomes very evident. If they are properly guided in such an atmosphere such children have often changed the course of their lives from one of excitement and indulgence to one of joy and righteousness and they do so in their own free will.
Finally, it is my utmost experience that the power of Sahaja Yoga is love – it is love that counsels and redeems us – love that is the source of our true joy, happiness and transformation, and this love is that of a mother, of our mother, Shri Mataji.
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